What this means to me.

You might not believe me if you read this

but eventhough i wish i was prettier

and eventhough i really take to heart what some people say about me

and eventhough my self esteem is a real bitch

and eventhough i can never be fully happy with my own self, at least not now

(but i promise i am working on it, and trying really hard to change that)

and eventhough i get into a state of depression over myself once in a while

i wouldn't have me any other way.

i am really, truly happy with who i am, what i am going to become, what i HAVE become

my life, the choices i've made, the people i know, and everything else that encompasses me.

i know who i am. i know who i want to be. i know what makes me different from other people.

yes, i wish i was someone else sometimes, and i can't stand looking in the mirror once in a while

and yes, a lot of people have told me things that i have never been able to shake off my back

which has resulted in me feeling the way i feel about myself sometimes

but at the end of the day, i know who loves me for who i am. and i know whose opinions REALLY matter.

and that is all that i really need.

Lat.